I lie and ...

I lie and wait for two things Neither of which I am ready forThey come whether I am ready or notThere is nothing to prepare That would require acknowledgement Acknowledgement of their existenceOr…of their impending arrivalWhy do I meet these with such dread today?So many other times I have been readyReady…not an adequate word reallyExcited does the feeling more justiceWe all go through these times, no?The shear turnaround…maybe it has useAppreciation…of the normalWhich in itself can be quite boring at timesOk it’s no longer dull…let’s go back to the normIf that would fix this uneasiness I would be too luckyLucky…another injustice…try auspiciousA less common word, for a less common feeling“Is there a greater evil,” I wonder aloud?You see, if there is a greater evil,There is a lesser one to matchYes there it is…both of these must visit at different timesI take the lesser, and invite its appearanceA message to my subconscious…“Hold all of my calls, I’m unavailable…”